Tell me you've never felt fear, explain to me how you've never cried,and how you've never experienced happiness from down deep inside, and i'll tell you your a liar. When i gave up drugs i didn't feel these emotions cause from inside i knew i was done. I kept drinking although not everyday i still kept drinking cause i was afraid, afraid to fall down, afraid i'd go back to the needle and spoon, even tried non alcoholic beer it sucked.can't stand these fucking energy drinks, they get me kinda stuck, told myself i'd only drink light beer, and have a whisky and coke here and there, never failed next morning my mind was thinking but my heart never was there, i always said just a few more nights, then i'll be able to stop and it will be alright, i made a conscious decision to take this next ride, it's really not that bad. What i wonder is does this happen to everyone the ability to feel all these emotions that were kept hidden deep down inside, hindering happiness and your ability to shed a few tears or just cry ? In my mind i was bulletproof a super hero with the power to even fly. One can never say they've lived if they have never tried. Expression seems to be the only thing that I've ever really had that came from down deep inside. I look at it this way a blessing in disguise, they say the phoenix arose from ashes, and so shall i , there will be a day that i to shall fly.