i've lived i've learned

I've loved, i've lost, i've learned, i know as a child we never think that addiction will end up being a part of our lives, but for some it does, i never dreamed that my life would be filled so full of up's and downs, but it has been. From the addiction came the pain, thru the pain came incarceration as well as the separation from everyone, and everything i ever loved  in my life. I destroyed and pushed any and all who were ever so lucky to cross my path, i burned and danced across every bridge i came upon, i can't even think back that far to a time when i was drug free, much less sober, early teens would be my best guess, anyways thru those years i did manage to do a few things right.  Many times i tried to pick up the pieces, but somehow they always fell outta my arms in the process, Finally i learned Empathy and compassion and thru those words i gave myself another chance, a new hope at a life that neither contained addiction only thru the memories that i hold inside of my heart, i've tried to make right to all that i hurt along the way, that is basically all i can do, but i hope that some will just see the change and others will hear about the change, either way i still continue, someone told me give up all that i had and that i'd find so much more, well it's true, my life isn't perfect,neither is my story, but they both belong to me.  I'm not here to judge you on if your living your life right, that's not up to me.  What i am saying is if i can change so can you, hate the disease pray for the addict.
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