Holidays always hit the hardest..

Holidays always hit the hardest, at least for me they do, i am grateful, truly grateful that i was granted another chance at life, a life that needs no substance illegal or legal, that the only power that i need comes from a digital camera and my creativity, to be honest i would of never ever dreamed of finding a gift that no one can place a momentary value to it, nothing compares to finding a passion, that i enjoy and that it won't end with me going to a cell, or another prison, photography is my recovery, i share all that i am not able to confess, and all that i don't know how to explain, thru my images, it has done wonders for me, and my self esteem. as i stated i would of never thought that i'd take to it as a duck does to water, i find my creativity thru the things that i shoot, and the ideas that i obtain, making it all work, and the end result being of a somewhat happy medium. No 2 pictures are the same although they might resemble one another, every photographer can tell the difference or remember key elements about the image that was shot or the location that was used, odd but i am a believer , once i looked at someones instagram, saw a few pictures that looked alot like mine, but i have shot over 100 k pictures and have over 80 k saved on an external drive, a usb, drive, and saved 2 times on the cloud, a proof version which is the completely edited version, without my watermark. anyways after viewing those 2 pictures, i went on a mad dash to the cloud, and sure enough they were both shot by me, without no watermark, either early on in my passion, or before i cared about what was actually my intellectual property , as i do now, i see my images and without photo credit, or watermark comment on the comment section, acknowledging my work, to see where they stand as if by mistake or by intention. I can't help it honestly i'd rather be at home editing my pictures, then to be out doing nothing. consoling my hearts love with what i created. it helps to keep me somewhat balanced, and going in the right direction. For me it works. Seek and you shall find either by accident or simply by need this concludes my daily thoughts as i transpire them from thoughts to written and spoken words, a process not so simple, but i am amazed at the ease of it when it comes to my thoughts, i make do, as the photography comes into play, so does the creative mind.